Silence broken

Silence Broken

tyty it's been awhile
denial has become my friend
memory erased
of your sad end

the pain has taken over
mommy is doing things wrong
i dont have the same willpower
that made you so strong

words stopped a month ago
the pain hurt my heart so bad
days are spent crying
nights are spent being mad

life has changed since you sleep tyty
daddy and mommy are through
brothers are struggling to get by
we all cry tears of missing you

mommy can't move on
she misses drew and you
life seems so pointless
when death is all i can think through

i had two good days
but they really dont count tyty
i pushed you out of my head
it's how i got by

i put on the fake smile
write those encouraging words tyty
hope they believe me when i say
we're okay and getting by

i spent tonight alone
you and drew up above
no one to be honest with
no returned love

you should be in your bed now
not wanting to go to sleep
instead a vanity replaces the crib
and the machines beeping are now my weep

tyty time isn't helping
heaven seems an imaginary cop out
a way to escape reality
when life leaves us only doubt

someone told me today at your grave
that this is only a step to take
but how can i take another step
when i have all this heartbreak

time isn't making it easier
it's harder as hours pass by
no matter the coping methods i endure
it still hurts to wake without you tyty