Missing TyTy Day

It's been awhile I know. The pain has forced me into pretending this never happened. It meant not going to your stone, not looking at your pictures, and not looking at this site. I'm ashamed of the weakness that led me here.

I'm missing you so bad right now. I've come to learn time heals all wounds is crap. Time helps you deal with it, makes you move on even if you're dragging your feet, but when you miss a lost loved one, when you long for them, the pain is always the same. Deep and crippling, it doesn't matter how much time has passed, when you are missing someone it hurts and hurts bad. Here are some lyrics that describe how your dad and I feel. This is the most powerful song I've ever heard, and I think of you every time I hear it. This is the most accurate description of pain to me. I miss you TyTy. Love Momma

Tonight I lack the strength to even move
When you walked, now watch me die
For I know this is harder for you
For love has let you down

And the road ahead is lined with broken dreams
So walk, you walk on by
And I failed to give you everything you need
For the fears behind your eyes

When I can't feel you
I'm not alright
Not alright
Not alright
When I can't heal you
I'm not alright
I'm not alright
I'm not alright

When I can't feel you
I'm not...
Alright

Jesus, as you throw me on the rocks
For love I left your side
'Cause I believed in love and beauty's wiles
Where heaven shone forth from her eyes

I'm wanting you to say
I'm wanting you to say
I wanted to believe
I'm wanting you to say
I'm wanting you to say
There's a time that wasn't all for naught [?]

It's such a waste now
It's such a waste now
Come on
Cause I know you're scared
But baby don't you hide
It's such a waste
We stand alone now
We'll make it somehow