Dear TyTy

Dear Ty Ty

Dearest Tyler
These feelings are for you
we are scared
words are all we have to run to

We're scared now that we lost you
Scared we'll forget your cries
lose the clear picture
of your big beautiful eyes

Fear overwhelms us
will we always remember your touch
will we always feel the warmth
we felt in your hand clutch

We want to be able to run to you
pull you against our beating chest
feel your strong heartbeat
and feel truly blessed

We never want to forget
the smile on your face
Now we're left with pictures
taking your place

We dread the what if's
don't want to ask why
We don't want to see your empty bed
while your brothers watch us cry

We wanted to kiss three boys
as we tuck you into bed
We don't want to pace all night
regretting all that wasn't said

We wanted to watch you step on to grass
See the wind ruffle your hair
Watch you squint your eyes
as you stand in the sun glare

We want to hug you Tyler
not a stone in a dark cemetery
We're so scared of missing you
Love mommy